Why I can't sleep.

For some reason I can't stop my mind and get some sleep.  Since I lost my job and am now trying to figure out at the age of 53 what I want to be when I grow up, I have all of these thoughts running through my head.  It would be a lot easier if we didn't have any debt.  Oh to be one of the few that don't have any outstanding bills.  Wouldn't that be fantastic?  Anyway, here I sit at 4:00am trying to figure out life and where do I go from here.

Believe it or not I've come to the conclusion that I hate sales.  I've studied it almost my whole life, know all the techniques, tie downs, Ben Franklin close, the first on to speak owns the product, build value, know your product.  I've studied Tom Hopkins, Zig Ziglar and more.  I just don't care for sales anymore.  When I was selling when I was younger I loved it.  Now I don't want to do it anymore.

How about computers?  What could I do in the computer field that would support my family?  I love computers and know Microsoft Office really well.  Have my Associates in Computer Technology and enjoy troubleshooting and programming.  Problem is, no ones willing to even look at me until I have a Bachelors Degree.  I designed, wrote and implemented a CRM tool for the auto industry and no one cares.  They want that degree.  What a bunch of ........ well, you know.  Problem is I'm still about two years away if I go for my Bachelors.

Entertainment!  Yeah that's it, I'll be an entertainer!  What does that pay?  Well, if your Jeff Dunham or Terry Fator it pays really well.  Problem is, I'm not them.  I get a few gigs here and there but not enough to support my family and it would take some time to get that going to where it might be profitable.  Cost money to make money in this industry.  Mailers, business cards and the like.  There is no easy answer.

So what to do?  I guess I'll just be happy that I can go back to bed and know that God is still in control and everything work on his timing.  I'm listening and hoping that he shows me what the right path is.  Sometimes it's really tough but I have to remember Isaiah 40:31, "But they that wait upon the Lord shall renew their strength; they shall mount up with wings as eagles; they shall run, and not be weary; and they shall walk, and not faint." And so I wait.

Still waiting........

Hey God, how about an answer already!